what had god promised

God promises not just peace, but perfect peace.

Undiluted, unspotted, unhindered peace.

blue day

it's a national PINK day! but we were all wearing BLUE!

today all of us suppose to follow college's photography class to the botanical garden but then it was raining heavily so the plan was canceled. after that i requested want to watch Toy Story 3 at gurney since we are free.

amy. shze chen. me

amy. shze chen. me

shze chen and me.

jun and me.

jun. shze chen. me.

flash back

here. right now. at this moment i feel like coming over here to blog after talking with (my boyfriend). i wonder what happen to me at the earlier minutes for asking few crazy questions about 'us'. recently, i've been thinking about how long we know each other since October 2005. it's such a miracle isn't it? it's crazy. we know each other for about 4 years and going to be 5 after few months more. although,our relationship was not quite strong like the pyramid building but i know we always stick together. guys never know how to say something that what girls would really want to listen. that's why you have no comment about us and it's okay for me. i don't (really) mind.

the best part of us. when we were still attending B.M tuition class every Sunday. we meet almost everyday. walking around the area where i live. we talked a lot and i don't even remember why we can have so much topic to talk and share about. walking through under the moon, kissing at the back door of someone's house. that's the best memory. at the same time,we were just a young teenage student who always take public buses to the town and all. and nothing's gonna make me forget the first time i attended your school canteen day. also,we took funny pictures at Prangin Mall at the same day. oh my god. everything is just cute and wonderful. nothing can replace how i felt at that time. nothing can make me happier than how i was that time. i was happy. seriously.

never thought that after this coming 5 years. we are still together. the feeling seems still fresh to me. but you? i don't know. although there's many hard times we go through before but i'll still always standing right here to care and love you. like the best closest friend.

going cinema watch movie(s) every week? going to the mall or something we use to do all the time? that's not a job for us. i don't want you to feel that's part of your job to bring me out for movies or accompany me while you want to be with your friends more. i want the way you feel that you do really want to see me or be with me. alright?

loves,

girlfriend

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

new toy on-board

i just bought a new Canon DSLR last week. it's my new toy!

2 days ago,i had enjoy myself with my boyfriend outing and photographing.

it was awesome and i appreciated every photo that had captured down by me and him.

every moment of it are really memorable.

also,i'm happy that i had something different on my pasted weekend.

now,let these photos do the talking.

DAY 1,

we were planned to go snake temple last night but the plan had changed suddenly

because boyfriend said he don't mind driving down to town.

9am++,boyfriend were driving.

we stopped by at Weld Quay then we started

to walk around at that area and do our photo shooting.

we broke into the Peranakan mansion

- VIP living room and kitchen only.

it's kinda lucky that we reached there earlier with beautiful weather and went back with rain.

we also had our movie at Gurney Plaza.

''letter to Juliet''

ahem**

DAY 2,

boyfriend and i went to Queensbay to watch Karate Kid,

it's very nice movie by the way.

4pm++ reached there but movie show's time is at 7.30pm.

we went to ate and then we did some photo shooting again

with the perfect weather at the same time.

after that we only entered the cinema.

we took lots of photo on the both day.

i couldn't upload all of them here due to i'm lazy.

*laugh*

love everything that just happened.

XOXO

i'm famous!

look,i have a free advertising by someone. how nice huh?
unfortunately,i can't accept it because my blog is so much expensive.
by the way,thank you very much dude.

you make ma fucking famous like a PORNSTAR baby!

\m/

she replies

well well well.

she replies at her twitter after reading my blog.

look,what kind of communication we have here.

ooh my...

she stalks me as well.

by the way,thanks for the caring. i'll take care.

i'm sorry to say that she's lifeless because i'm lifeless too.

anyway,i'll wait what's coming up next.

PROVEN

please do click it to enlarge

SHE NEVER GETS A LIFE

early morning,i woke up and i found this.

"OMG i see your pic wanna puke. Yorrrrrrr ! Dont change pics liao lah. I still hate you lah mahai. No matter how nice your name , i will still pronoun your name as CHAR LO TEH tulan sial." she said.

how obvious you're talking about me? yea,i know i'm ugly and you're lenglui/sweet like sugar. but still i gotta say fuck you very much! i don't even know when you can stop such nonsense? what the hack is wrong with you? you never stop stabbing me behind like a kid. ooh,should i go to you and apologize that i'm so sorry for SNATCHED away your boyfriend? (by the way,i did not snatch from you) do you think i don't hate you? anyhow,i hate you as well but i'm not you who never grow up with a mature mind. by the way,why you have to bother about my picture? if you dislike it then that's your problem. you don't have to post up this on your fucking twitter and show it everyone and made them comment more or ask more about me then you replied them ''Tulan loh. Pic change lai change ki the appearance wont change also. Tulan'' and ''I HATE HERRRRRRR ! -_-''. you fucking TU KAO man. imma tell you,i had enough for what you have said about me! don't make come to you and talk. i don't care whether who else is going to stop me,i'll just go after you! YOU LIFELESS FREAK! because you, my love life changed a lot compare in to few years ago.

''complicated relationship always occurs terrible situation and it would also make you famous as people keep calling you BITCH"

''There's a game called circle and I don't know how

I'm way too up to back down

But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out

Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't

This fucking black cloud's still follow's me around

But it's time to exercise these demons

These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!''

i swear to myself,i'll never enter any relation like this although there's a big chances to be happier!

i seriously rather to have a peace relationship that with trust and love which could lead me to a peaceful and wonderful love life. complicated is not i want and not my type. right now,i cannot regret or blame anything or anyone. this is the path i've choose earlier to go on and i gotta take care whatever is happening now. no matter right or wrong. i stay calm to settle things. but there's always a limit. if you never stop doing bad thing towards me,i might go with something that i couldn't imagine.

from the beginning until today,right now,is that all my wrong?

amazing day with my girlfriends

*LOVEYOUGIRLS*

me

(taken by amy)

seriously,i had a great afternoon with my girls.

we went to take pictures at a nearby park with playground.

and with a great weather at the same time as well.

it's awesome!

eventually,we were late for class.

*laugh*

me & shze chen

shze chen. me. amy

me*hug*amy

thank to shze chen new DigitalSLR camera.

to view more pictures. please,check them out at my facebook.

Christina Milian - Us Against The World

Quotes

♥Better to say how u feel & get ur heart broken than leave words in ur heart forever unspoken.♥

♥Every girls wish that she'll marry someone who know what she's going to say.♥

♥if someone is playing Hide & Seek with you in a relationship, it could be they're not ready to be found.♥

waiting you at this random night

i was bored. then i did paint my nail polish colour,it's red this time. right now,i'm here waiting my man. waiting him to get back to his home and free to talk with me through Internet.

i miss him.

after painted my nail.

i love messing with my bear on my bed.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn but that's alright because I like the way it hurts - i love the way you lie (eminem feat rihanna)

do please click the phrase above and link to listen to the song. it's a nice song.

full lyric,

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can't breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It's like I'm in flight

High of a love

Drunk from the hate

It's like I'm huffing paint

And I love it the more that I suffer

I sufficate

And right before im about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I'm leaving you

No you ain't

Come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

It's so insane

Cause when it's going good

It's going great

I'm Superman

With the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad

It's awful

I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you're with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick

Of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit 'em

You push

Pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down

Pin 'em

So lost in the moments

When you're in 'em

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin' over

But you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn't mean

And we fall back

Into the same patterns

Same routine

But your temper's just as bad

As mine is

You're the same as me

But when it comes to love

You're just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn't you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship

Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed

I'll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

2 is 2,never be 1

how to tell ''i miss you'' once to 2 person?

anyhow. sorry. i don't think i have 2 heart in one body,so i'll never do such thing seriously.

p/s: hence you break up and are still friends, you were either never in love or you still are.

I never said I was a good girl, not a bad girl either.

baby,

i want apologize to you before i start to tell what i am about to tell and this might be a long tired post.

half hour ago,i logged in your facebook account. it's disrespect isn't it? i'm sorry. you should know what i have done at the earlier hour. i read your messages from your inbox. yea,all the messages that she sent to you and you sent to her. you should know who i'm talk about,right? i felt like an asshole reading them. i was thinking it is right to know or not to know? should i regret for realizing your account password?

''knowing something is not quite a good thing sometimes. i always want to get to know something desperately,but when i already have the chances to know then i refused to know or when i already know about it then i regret for knowing it. ''

while reading all the conversation between you and her,i know well and it's obviously you treated the both differently. yes,she is more independent than i am. she hold her words and never agree of what you're saying when she thinks you're wrong. she always stand at her own's right. i see some hidden story through the conversation. i never get angry of what you have said but i got a little of hurt. i see mine messages and her messages all over the 2nd page. i seems ignored by you. reading the messages that i've sent,i realized that i'm annoying and irritating seriously. we are the different girl. you might feel she is real because she is a straight forwards person. unfortunately,i'm not. i'm a girly girl and i'm shy. sometimes,i do not know how to tell or request something to you or from you. i keep quiet when i don't wish to have any argument but you are strongly disagree girl kept quiet when issues are there. eventually, i just cry and tell you everything with a shaking voice. at this moment,i wish i could have a best and close friend who can give me comment and opinion on how i felt right now. but i'm just not in such luck and i couldn't even find any of them to share because through the experience i learnt a lot of lesson. most of friends are not trustworthy. but at least i found my way to share it over here.

this afternoon Amy told me one of my friend told her that she felt uncomfortable and kinda mad while she saw what you post or comment something on my wall. for example,recently you comment on one of my post on facebook ''cuz busy chit chat wif guys'' and another one ''oh. u met what guy '' then,Amy came and tell me this and also agree of what another have said. baby,do you know how i felt and react at the moment? i know they are not qualify to comment our relationship or how the way we communicate. i can tell you honestly,i don't know how to express my feeling on problem. totally. it's difficult for me. seems everybody thinks you're fierce or hot temper since the day we quarreled and then later you quarreled with Amy on facebook. but i can say that they doesn't hate you and so do i. but,can you treat me a little better as people other people can see or feel? change a little bit cause of me can? i want to hear and see nice thing that i probably would feel happy for because i love you.

baby,can i know what am i to you? how do you think of me as one of your girl now? i'm so curious.

a lot of people may think i already have a stable relationship for 4/5years. it's unsure record. can you imagine i'm not sure how long we are doing together? it's totally failure. we also never know when is our anniversary,i mean the new one. the day one that we get back together. but hey,i disagree for saying ''we'' never know because i do know. baby,you should know it too. i did sent a message to you facebook and mentioned it before. but,it's okay that we stay this way for tend not to know. so we will never be counting how long it have been. just let it be.

♥

♥

♥

katy and travis

♥

♥

♥

nicole and joel

love brings

*sweet smiles*

baby,

i love you and i miss you lots.

sigh*

tell me! how am i suppose to get a thousand plus DSLR camera just for the subject that i’m taking right now when i’m totally seriously broke? i do really wish to get one of them and go outdoor and do shooting with my classmates. unfortunately,i really can’t make it cause i’m really broke. how? what should i do? sigh* and… my boy friend’s 19th birthday is just around the corner and i’m now worrying about what to present cause i have totally no idea. i really wish to get something special for him. i did not met any such headache issues at the earlier year.