Wednesday, October 27, 2010

be involved then you'll realized.


i've been thinking the same thing again and again. well, it been sticking in my brain for all the time. sometimes i think it doesn't just make sense. i tried for so many times to make this better by settle it in one shot but i always failed to do so. what's bothering me? i don't know. i'm so confused with everything that just happened. i really want to make this better and clearer. no matter how and what, i'm behaving like another person who act terribly sarcastic and mean. why? because of all those crazy thing that i never expect it would happen. like how others use to say, once is enough. please,don't try to make it another time. it feels real sucks, and you should have know. i don't beg you for loving me forever or what. i'm begging you to be loyal and faithful. i hate it to be called bitch or slut like i did nothing wrong and people keep thinking i'm the one who ruined everything. i like to be free and never got involved in those triangle relationship. aight?

can anyone tell me what to do?

anyway,don't ever tell me to forget the past and all. hello! it's logical that this would never be forgotten that easily. when you experienced this, you will know how it feels like. anyway, i like the way of how i have changed. and you will never get it. friend,please don't try to act filthy.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

one last chance.

there is so many of EMOTIONAL post i wanted to post it here but then while i try to start typing i realized that i don't even know how to start and i don't have much to talk about the situation. all i know is, fuck with it and damn it. i'm trying to live happily as no one can bother much. i do not want to request the same thing e-ve-ry week!

so coincidence? i don't know.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

wednesday.

yesterday,it was so sudden that me and my classmate planned to watch The child's eyes for today. first,we were all so ''free'' to organize this crazy plan. then we started to discuss, do we really have to watch this kind of movie due to most of us are kinda scare of watching ghost movie. but end up,we get excited bout it. laugh*

the process of watching this movie was really nuts. most of us were watching with half closing eyes and peeked frequently due to our curiosity. to be honest it ain't that really scary,it just got influenced by the creepy audio when something is going to happen in a quick sudden. eventually,the movie is kinda okay but the ending sucks! anyway, we did had our fun. smile*

really had a great day with amy. it was like from the morning breakfast till the dinner. nice one!


ooh! i should have wear purple today due to it's anti-bully day. October 20th!

~20.10.2010~

Monday, October 18, 2010

simply defined.

N-Dubz ft. Mr Hudson - Playing With Fire (Official Video with Lyrics)


I tried to believe every word of your sweet story
But intuition keeps telling me
Your making a fool outta me

Bruno Mars - Starting Today

this song is what how i wish he could say to me,seriously.



We had a date, I stood you up
You tried to call but I didn't pick up
See I forgot about our plans..
Please forgive your man for ruining your night so many times

I'm sorry, I know you're mad
And I don't wanna be like every other man that you've had
So I'm stopping all these childish things, girl, you mean too much to me
Your love is worth too much to lose

Girl, I know I broke your heart and trusting me is really hard
But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today
I know that I'm the one to blame, you say every man's the same
But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today
Girl, I'm starting today..

You're tired of playing the kiss and make up game
And I apologize for the man I became
If I could do it all again, I wouldn't hurt my best friend
And I'd throw away all my selfish ways


I'm sorry, I know you're mad
And I don't wanna be like every other man that you've had
So I'm stopping all these childish things, girl, you mean too much to me
Your love is worth too much to lose


Girl, I know I broke your heart and trusting me is really hard
But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today
I know that I'm the one to blame, you say every man's the same
But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today
Girl, I'm starting today..


Girl, I know I broke your heart and trusting me is really hard
But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today
I know that I'm the one to blame, you say every man's the same
But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today
Girl, I'm starting today..

Sunday, October 17, 2010

pathetic


Again,this is a emo post. I nearly got caught on what exactly happened in the past. Yes, the worst part of my life. Again, I did nothing wrong but I'm the one who seems to blame on. If I could choose again,I will choose to be terribly fucked-up at the beginning and be happy for the rest of my life. I wish to escape but I can't,thanks to those tears. I wonder why it just can't make this whole thing stop easily. I am just a normal girl who live in this world and seek for a great faithful man to be with and never gonna hurt me for god sake. Unfortunately, this not gonna happen in my life. Guys out there never get enough with girls,and those weird girls never understand clearly what's the meaning of 'in a relationship'. This is so weird. Am I got fool again? I don't know but probably YES! I am prepared to leave all the time, I am prepared to give up and think wisely. What's the use to tell me that you love and you're sorry? The problem now is that I lost faith on you. I don't know how many lies you have told, I don't know how many things is hidden quietly without being aware.


I'm so tired. The feeling is awful that makes me so sick. Apology is forgiven, but the whole incident that brought up is can't be erase easily. Boy,you should know.

Monday, October 11, 2010

fuckyea

fuck
fuck
fuck
!!!

again,shopping list

edited!

for sure.
  • a pair of flats shoe. [done]
  • a pair of sandal
  • a pair of heel.
  • a blouse. [consider done]
  • brown-liner
  • eyeliner. [done]
  • lingeries. [done]
  • a wallet [done]
  • a handbag.
maybe.
  • bracelets, bangles, rings and earrings. [only got my earrings already]
  • skin products. [done]
  • hairbands and headbands. [done]
may not buy but wanted to buy.
  • skinny jeans - light blue.
  • more outgoing clothes.
  • more lingerie.
  • sneakers.
  • more heels.
  • more accessories.