like a pyramid

stones heavy like the love you've shown
solid as the ground we've known
and i just wanna carry on
we took it from the bottom up
and even in a desert storm
sturdy as a rock we hold
wishing every moment froze
now i just wanna let you know
earthquakes can't shake us
cyclones can't break us
hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep on goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid

what a very bad dream

hey.baby..
i had a very bad dream this last night. it's about another breakup of us occurred. you told me that you'll not betray me again but then you did it again. i was so hurt badly,and i felt like slapping you but then it missed. i shouted ''don't you ever come to me!!FOREVER!'' so loud in the dream and i was so freaking angry. you were so flirty and not serious with everything. i just hate you from top to the bottom. it also surprised me cause i did not cry at all. hmmm. what a dream.

when i was awaken. thank god! it's not reality!
i'm glad that i found everything is fine.

i wanna know so badly that how do you think about our 4/5 years relationship? do have any comment or what?

"Dear John''

he's back from singapore already.
he bought Dear John(DVD) for me from JB while he was on his way home.
i know this movie don't suits him to watch but he still bought it purposely and wanted to watch with me badly.
i still appreciated a lot for this.

p/s:thanks baby.. love you! i'll see you soon. smile*

after watching it...
there,he claimed it's that not that nice already.
but,it's okay. i don't mind cause i think this movie is normal.
not bad. but still it made me cried somehow.
i don't know whether he realized it or not.
anyway,i really appreciated that moment watching together.

random

i was driving down to town to have my final test
paper at the recent pasted sem.

okay,right now i'm having my sem break and my man is back from singapore.
obviously,he is in love with singapore like i do.
i just wanna go there again and again so badly.
after that,i wish i could travel at the another place like bangkok.
opsss,i just realized that we never have our vacation since we
know each other till now. 5 years,perhaps.
we don't know whether got such chance or not.
nehh,let it be then.
travel and vacation things is not that easy to be happened.

sigh,i'm now out of everything.
i can't buy anything i like right now. really broke!
i feel like working but then not the right time for only 3 weeks.
this is a short sem break and never gotta be long anyway.
hopefully i could live any better.

peace.

me tried and tired

it had been awhile that you keep persuading and pleasing me not to smoke or to smoke less.
alright,i listen and i do whatever you ask cause i respect you and i love you.
sounds great huh? but then,when there's a time for me to open my mouth to ask you not to smoke or please smoke less and i don't see you take it serious. you might think that i'm crapping and i'm already get used to see you smoke like i don't mind anymore. but,i do mind before and i do hope before that you could take my words and show me that you can and you respect me too.

right now,i wanna tell you that you can just smoke as much as you can and as much as you want too because i wont say anything anymore and i'm tired for saying this since we were form 4. every time i tried to talk and you felt i'm too annoying and i don't think my words is powerful or important to you. you don't have to say anything,i'm here to give ya a full license for smoking. however,my smoking habit i will still continue reducing but not because of you and it's because of myself.

please forgive me if there's a day i can't stand it and i decided to leave you cause of the smoking habit.

this moment

i love you baby,my man!















i love you girls!

i never regret for meeting shze chen and amy as being friends,they're the best ever friend i ever met.
i dont want to see my boyfriend dislike my friends when i think my friends are great to me.
also,i dont want my friends dislike my boyfriend when i think my boyfriend suits me and love me.
i felt totally bad when i saw you guys criticizing one another indirectly.
it's so uncomfortable.

baby,i'm really sorry for breaking our promised.
i know that you can't even feel anything when i'm apologizing.
i've been saying sorry all the while,and everytime we fight.
i made you down all the time,it's my fault that i used to fight back whenever you want me to listen to you.
but,my dear i really need those trust for the better us.
it's so true that there's no trust and there'll be no love between pair.
i do regret everything that i've done.
i wish you could try all your best to trust me after this.
i really don't know how to go on and continue everything in our life if nothing is work on us.
still,i love you as well as you love me.

i'm so glad that you still do realized you were too over hot tempered.
i'm so glad that my friend could think that you're a sweet guy for me.
i'm so glad that you could still apologized to me and my friend.
at at moment,i felt that somehow you've changed to be a better and mature man.
i really hope that you'll not gonna become another example of my father.
can you promise me not to be this way? please..
you're still the best i ever met.
it's not easy to be together this way for so long.

after awhile of the argument.
like i had predicted that someone gonna come and ask me and not gonna be only one and yes it just simply happened.
inside my heart,i felt really shameful but i know nothing gonna change and i'll just face it.
all the best to charlotte lee.

=)

how am i suppose to live without your trust

i need you to gain trust on me. it's not easy for us to get back together this way. please,trust me and i love you.

show me that you love me and you really care about my feelings. hey,i do trust you that's why i choose to go back with you. help me understand my feelings. i'm really down when you don't even trust me and keep on behaving the same way on suspecting me.

tell me,how am i suppose to live this way? i'm feeling uncomfortable.

we been quarreling for fun?

right,you been acting really strange with me.
not cold or either sweet.
you been looking for argument with me.
you talk rudely when there's some issues for you to talk about.
you scold me real easily for small matter.
you never try to trust me but you keep thinking that im suspicious.
whenever you call my cell phone,you want to listen everything which surrounding me.
you want my friend to make some noise so that you could trust me.

why you have to act this way?

i'm with you all the while.
i'm not doing anything to you right now.
yea,you feel i'm so abnormal when i'm acting real good without flirting with guys.
you want me to do so? so that you could able to live better as normal?
saying: yea, that's charlotte who likes to flirt around.

i'm not what you think!
i know,you use to think i'm like a slut and i'm flirty.
if you really want me to show ya what is a slut and flirty all about,i can show you.
i'm behaving real good. i'm not joining all my friends with there's a plan. i'm not following them for clubbing with they want me to go.

can you tell me what you want from me?

i'm here to trust you since i promised to trust you and go back with you.
i never been questioning you a lot. please,don't search for argument.
i'm sorry that i always make you down.
i'm sorry for letting you losing all those trust.
there were all my faults!

i'm working on our relationship. make it pure and warm.
please,don't let me felt another kind of feelings against you.
i'm feeling uncomfortable and down whenever you act that annoying way.

i love you.