Dear Darien,

baby, i'm moving. i'm moving to the better place. i have been suffering during the i was waiting you patiently. i'm sorry,i dont keep my words. i said i will wait ya no matter how long. that time,i was totally didn't ever realize how hard it will be. now, i finally understand clearly it was really not easy at all. the soft sobs hurt me lots. the feeling i have inside, i still feel for you. you show me lots of thing, the fact, the revenge, the people, the heart, the truth etc. i want to be with you,but i'm trying to think all over carefully. what it will be if we are together? what about the trust? what about the life style? what about your family look upon me? haiiih.. i really don't know.

you told

it's really unbelievable that we do still argue and fight even tho we ain't couple and are separated.
sound kinda weird but i am glad that you still care for me.
you told me alot of things today through the internet.
we chatted,you expressed out all your feelings and told me how bad i am.
then you told me i couldn't cry for you anymore because i lost the feelings.
but baby,you was wrong.
i am crying....

i cried for all what i've done to you.
but i want to be stronger.
i wanna stand up. we are separated but still we tend to be couple.


'' If time were still
The sun would never never find us
We could light up
The sky, tonight
I would see the world through your eyes
And leave it all behind

If it's you and me forever
If it's you and me right now
That'd be alright
Be alright
If we chase the stars to lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So, won't you fly with me

Oh yeah
Gonna fly with me now

Now the past
Has come alive
And gave it meaning
And a reason
To give all I can
To believe once again

If it's you and me forever
If it's you and me right now
That'd be alright
Be alright
If we chase the stars to lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won't you fly with me

Maybe you were just afraid
Knowing you were miles away
From a place where you needed to be
And you are right here with me

It's you and me forever
If it's You and me right now
That'd be alright
If we chase the stars to lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won't you fly with me

If it's you and me forever
If it's you and me right now
That'd be alright
Be alright
If we chase the stars to lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
Won't you fly
Fly
Fly with me''

my feelings

baby,i am afraid that my feelings towords you is getting less.

i am here still waiting for you. you told me you will find the truth very soon and you asked me to trust you too. but then..i have been waiting so long. you are still with her,and you told me that she is better. it made me felt that your heart aint here anymore.

i felt tired...

i wait...

but...

you are still not coming back. i am sure that this could make us not gonna in love again.

sometimes,i felt sorry to have a negative thinking upon you. i will thought that i've been used. you came and kiss and hug me. i confused,baby. i try to think it all in the proper way. you aint that bad to me. you still care for me even tho we are separated. i want to be seriously in love,but not to have such complicated relationship between you and me. i want to make a decision for myself,but sometimes i am afraid. i know you will get mad and saying i am puting blame on you.

i am really very confusing....

my heart are totally broken

i haven't started to type but my tears have started to fall. i dont know what i left now. i did the worst mistake which make myself so suffering now. sometimes,i wish i am doing things by my own decision. i dont want to be treated this way. i dont give a damn about how people think about me. i just want to move on,look forward but every time when i just started the first step,i turn and i look back. two person's memories, the thick and thin we had before. i am staring whatever i saw,every thing i saw just made my heart broken. it feels pain. very pain. i dont want to live my daily life with all those tears ans sobs.

i want to be with you,but i found it hard and difficult. because of what i've done to you. you remember every single thing that i did wrong. baby,why i didn't see you remember those best memory?
''Once again, let me say I Love You,Maybe then, the rain will still not stop''

i dont even know what is your plan. i dont even know what is happening out there. you ain't mine anymore. you are with somebody. you asked me to trust you. but what i saw and heard,it's really hurt. i dont know whether are you really in love with somebody or not. you told me that,your heart are with me but just the body. you told me all those thing and made me happy,then i relised that you are coming back to me very soon. few days later,you told me you are with somebody already. i cried and cried. cry and cry too. i wish,you are telling the truth i am believing in you.

please,dont hurt me.