break down

i only drop by whenever i feel the emptiness. i'm so tired with all those argument. i don't know what to do. i never told my friend about the argument, i never share my feelings with anyone whenever i'm lost. all i do is stay right here tell all i can. i've been thinking the same issue over and over again, i don't want to think about it but i can't even control myself with this. right now, i wish i can tell you everything and hopping you can just not speak a word but just stay on listen to me and my sob. then give me the warmest hug. this is all i want but i clearly understood that this will never happens. we always argue and we just leave the problem aside without settle it. i cried for thousand times but why do i still can cry so much for you. i thought i am a little stronger but then i realized that when things like this is brought up, i'll break down and cry with my silent tone. and this is the hardest thing i can do, it's getting cold and i barely can breathe.

this feeling i can shake no more, this feeling is running out the door. :'(

軌跡

:'(

sensitivity

i'm trying to tell myself that i'm over reacting. i want to be a more open minded person who can take care good care of oneself. unfortunately, i can't.

what would this September be?

i was thinking about every September of mine. it was terrible and this time this September won't be any different because by this month i'm gonna miss someone so badly and i will be left alone here.

frankly, those bad memory were popping out in my retarded brain all in sudden. i'm i over it? am i? never been this way before and i'm lack of experience in my life. somehow, i hope i have something that which is very important to myself and can take over this whole shit over me and never gonna think about it. sighs, unfortunately i find nothing important in my life. it sounds so pathetic. i'm hating people around me, including my family. i wish i can have someone who i can fully trust, but in this world i believe there is no one who are trustworthy enough to keep your secret without breaking it. since my current life ain't working well, should i change my life? i'm thinking...

yes, i'm retared

yes, i write everything here for about 2 paragraph and i just cancel and erase them all.

Chris Medina - What Are Words

The American Idol !

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:')