break down

i only drop by whenever i feel the emptiness. i'm so tired with all those argument. i don't know what to do. i never told my friend about the argument, i never share my feelings with anyone whenever i'm lost. all i do is stay right here tell all i can. i've been thinking the same issue over and over again, i don't want to think about it but i can't even control myself with this. right now, i wish i can tell you everything and hopping you can just not speak a word but just stay on listen to me and my sob. then give me the warmest hug. this is all i want but i clearly understood that this will never happens. we always argue and we just leave the problem aside without settle it. i cried for thousand times but why do i still can cry so much for you. i thought i am a little stronger but then i realized that when things like this is brought up, i'll break down and cry with my silent tone. and this is the hardest thing i can do, it's getting cold and i barely can breathe.

this feeling i can shake no more, this feeling is running out the door. :'(