There.
it is what i'm saying and expecting in the previous post i've said. this is the first day i'm staying here at my grandma's house at town. i was just came back no longer from my college and so do him. hour later,we started to argued. i'm sick with it. and,there i cried softly.
it's not hard for me do make surprises for you.
it's not hard for me to send you text messages frequently.
it's not hard for me to do all that simple things at all.
here is my bullshit for you.
it is what you call it bullshit.
your girlfriend's explanation is all bullshit.
my dear,
i was a sweet girl before to you last time.
i remember,i walked along under a hot sun to your house in the afternoon just to surprise you.
i remember,i bought you stuff that you never expect.
i remember,i'll always remember when is our anniversary and i'll always surprise you with a sweet text message and gift.
i remember,i'll always write ya a letter when thing was going wrong.
i do also remember,i'll always sent you a lovely message after i'm awake and before i'm asleep.
i used to sit down and think what to present you for our anniversary, your birthday, Valentines' day and Christmas day. i always created special gifts for you during those special day because i'm so sure how much i love you at that time. i can't even concentrate anything when we behaved cold after an argument then i'll just write you a letter to express me feelings and ask for forgiveness. i think i behaved real sweet to you seriously. i always give you all the best thing. i ignored everything i heard from my friends and just to love you to the 100%. after the separation,we got back together. i've changed. i don't do all those thing for you that i just mention just now. i forced myself to changed and to be like another person. that's why,i requested you not to call me Lou Por anymore.
now, you're saying you never see me send message to you often and no more surprise.
you said let's us behave like strangers and don't say we have distance then we turn cool. you just wrap things up and i torn it apart. And then you said don't be with you anymore if i wanted behaved this way.
do you know what you've said it's really hurtful?
i want to have a sweet relationship like the others. i want it real badly like you can't imagine how i want it at all. i got envy when i heard and saw how sweet are those couple. i saw you working on it when we were together. but,sometimes i ignored it. i ignored it because i'm scared and i don't want to have disappointment. i dislike the feelings that i love you like hell and you could just leave me easily and erased all our pictures just like that. i really don't wish this could happen in this way again. i remember how bad i felt,i lived real suffer without you. i cried for months.
it is a trauma for me.
now,i'm just trying to love myself more. i forced myself to behave differently and i always apologize to you no matter i'm wrong or your wrong because i just wish everything could be settle down.
i hardly believe that now i felt like i'm not forcing myself anymore and i'm doing just like that. i'm really surprised that you said that you do not think we will separate anymore. i do not know this is true or not and i don't know how much you love me right now. i just wish that everything will be just fine. i'm tired for seeing us keep pushing blame and have argument.
i love you.
it is what i'm saying and expecting in the previous post i've said. this is the first day i'm staying here at my grandma's house at town. i was just came back no longer from my college and so do him. hour later,we started to argued. i'm sick with it. and,there i cried softly.
it's not hard for me do make surprises for you.
it's not hard for me to send you text messages frequently.
it's not hard for me to do all that simple things at all.
here is my bullshit for you.
it is what you call it bullshit.
your girlfriend's explanation is all bullshit.
my dear,
i was a sweet girl before to you last time.
i remember,i walked along under a hot sun to your house in the afternoon just to surprise you.
i remember,i bought you stuff that you never expect.
i remember,i'll always remember when is our anniversary and i'll always surprise you with a sweet text message and gift.
i remember,i'll always write ya a letter when thing was going wrong.
i do also remember,i'll always sent you a lovely message after i'm awake and before i'm asleep.
i used to sit down and think what to present you for our anniversary, your birthday, Valentines' day and Christmas day. i always created special gifts for you during those special day because i'm so sure how much i love you at that time. i can't even concentrate anything when we behaved cold after an argument then i'll just write you a letter to express me feelings and ask for forgiveness. i think i behaved real sweet to you seriously. i always give you all the best thing. i ignored everything i heard from my friends and just to love you to the 100%. after the separation,we got back together. i've changed. i don't do all those thing for you that i just mention just now. i forced myself to changed and to be like another person. that's why,i requested you not to call me Lou Por anymore.
now, you're saying you never see me send message to you often and no more surprise.
you said let's us behave like strangers and don't say we have distance then we turn cool. you just wrap things up and i torn it apart. And then you said don't be with you anymore if i wanted behaved this way.
do you know what you've said it's really hurtful?
i want to have a sweet relationship like the others. i want it real badly like you can't imagine how i want it at all. i got envy when i heard and saw how sweet are those couple. i saw you working on it when we were together. but,sometimes i ignored it. i ignored it because i'm scared and i don't want to have disappointment. i dislike the feelings that i love you like hell and you could just leave me easily and erased all our pictures just like that. i really don't wish this could happen in this way again. i remember how bad i felt,i lived real suffer without you. i cried for months.
it is a trauma for me.
now,i'm just trying to love myself more. i forced myself to behave differently and i always apologize to you no matter i'm wrong or your wrong because i just wish everything could be settle down.
i hardly believe that now i felt like i'm not forcing myself anymore and i'm doing just like that. i'm really surprised that you said that you do not think we will separate anymore. i do not know this is true or not and i don't know how much you love me right now. i just wish that everything will be just fine. i'm tired for seeing us keep pushing blame and have argument.
i love you.
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