uncomfortable

cool.

i know that you realized i read your blog and her blog. and i know you want me to say something. but,i think i won't say anything. it's obvious,it's an argument. you and her. i don't felt comfortable seriously. somethings is telling me and i'm feeling something too. i kept quiet and i never wanted to mention or ask any since i found out. i pretended cause i don't even want to give a damn bout it. i ignored everything and you choose to tell me about it too.

so,
who care about who was wrong or right in the past?
nobody is wrong but just that the ''time'' was wrong. you both just met each other in a wrong time,alright? what to do if it had already happened in your life. take it as an experience and learn something. take the fact. go for what your heart felt.
if you're peace lover then better you choose for don't give a damn.
if you want to have your right then come out and face it.
if everything were fake and you miss her then go back with her.
i'm sorry i can't rewind anything. but,i wish i could.

after reading for more than twice i would like to say something. honestly,you both behaved in a very immature way. (i'm sorry). every single thing can be settle in a right way. i know it's difficult for you guys to let go a relationship that last for half year. i know what had happen at the earlier months was bad. i don't even know what could makes you guys quarrel.

jealousy,perhaps?

you jealous she has a boyfriend
you jealous he has a girlfriend
?

imma not trying to guess anything. it's pretty cool that who i am right now. i don't even want to fight or talk about issues. i'm talking here. but i don't expect any single things. cause i know nothing's gonna change the fact. it's true that i'm still crying. no point. listen to those songs while i first realized something was going wrong.
''cold as you''
i post the lyric publicly at facebook. very fast,you posted this
''i'm looking at front door''
i briefly had a flashback and i could just cry simply.

you said that you hardly find a real friend to talk about your problems. so,do you think your girlfriend have any to talk and share with her friend? what i do is talking over here. i do not want to share my blog. cause i don't want to receive any opinion or console.

i have no solution in this.
but i'm happy that i could get slightly over bout it. at least i realized i've changed.
and the world have changed too. i don't treat my beau like how i treat last time.
i would send him my love message to him often. i would say something sweet to him every night before he sleep. i would also die to meet him. but now,seriously,not anymore.

if now we are still apart i guess i can't even can be your friend.
but,i wish i can be cause you took care of me for so long before.