i'm not fine

took several pictures of mine on the last saturday.

now,i have no idea why and why again i am emo about?
i met her at campus last few days and today.
still the same,every time i saw her and i'll just act that i didn't saw at all.
i just do whatever i was doing.
look at the ground or just talk with my friends.
then,i turned around and took a look while she were already walked away.
i don't know how to tell the way i felt whenever i saw her.
i hide myself like a rat,i ran away like a rat.
it's really ridiculous.

why?

lately,we are just fine.
unfortunately,i felt really like a psycho or what.
i still can't and can't do better for moving on my life.
''We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye''
yea,why? why did we say good bye at that moment?
why did you choose her to lie me?
why did you place another girl in your heart?

do you ever ever know that i did not even replace anyone in my heart
after i placed you there.

i'm like a freak who can't just forget about those ugly thing.
i'm asking myself why is this have to be happened to me?
why i took the relationship like a life of mine at that time?
which made myself suffered until today.
you're just better than me.
a lot better than me for handling this.
forgive me that i did not just make myself happy but being emotional.

i read back all my posted article 15 minutes ago.
while reading the first article,my tears dropped.
i remember what kind of feelings that i was having right that moment.
then i kept on crying and continue my reading.



here, finally we took our pictures.

we know what we are.

xoxo