disappointment

i got my result already. sigh* i don't get any A for any of my subject. so,i think i won't get rewarded by my boyfriend anymore. but then,is okay. i won't really bother about the reward but my result. i have to resit one of the subject that i got D for it. electronic publishing,as i predicted already. it's stupid doing those resiting paper and gotta pay for extra rm80/100. my boyfriend also asked me,why i would have to take a resit paper in every sem?
no point. i'm not as good as him,i guess. i'm seriously down with it. down with everything. i'm so broke,i can't but myself anything i like so that i would be a little happier. i'm so weak,having those crazy sickness and uncomfortable feelings all the while,especially the fatal headache. i'm so lazy,i lazy with every thing and all i do is just rotting at the weekdays and never did something memorable or worth. i did so hard but i think it isn't hard enough for my examination on last sem,and now i finally knew my result. bad result. FML seriously.

sigh sigh sigh

i need to get reloaded!