sometimes.

i'm a god damn thinker. yes, i am. i think a lot while i'm trying not to think. why is having a relationship is so troublesome? we need to pretend that we're okay while we aren't. we need to stay clam while we feel like slapping somebody. we need to stay strong while we're about to die. we need to accept things that we don't feel it's worth. we need to act like a child while we're an adult. we need to think about him/her before we think about ourselves. we need to say somethings nice while we feel like killing someone. and there's so much more. isn't this funny? is not just in a relationship we will meet such situation, this is life.

There is a "lie" in believe, "over" in lover, "end" in friend, "us" in trust, "ex" in "next" and "if" in life.

it's kinda tired. i wish a could able to sleep for a long period and wake up at the time while happiness turns out to be true. what if i can change my personality and be a totally different person. but, i guess sometimes it will not be working as fine as i think. anyway, this is a random post. i'm not emo right now.