It is true that things can be seen differently from the outside and the inside. i might seems like i do not care any of you willing to stay or not to stay, but to be honest my heart breaks whenever i am not able to find any of you staying with me like every girl wants to have a 'best friend forever'. it is scary to be alone here without having a great friend to live with. i find it difficult for me to define my live and my personality. i take it too serious, nobody will have any idea of how much i hate myself sometimes when i have this kind of issues. is it all because of who i am right now? is it because if i can owe myself a car, i can drink like an alcoholic, i have all the cash in my purse walking like a model and my friends will be with me? any idea? i'm out of this shit.
i realized that my life is bored, friends walked away. pathetic. miserable. meaningless. they don't stay long with me. why? because of the path that i'd decided to walk? i just want be a normal great girl who won't touch any of those shit. i'm like the mommy and boyfriend's girl. i'll either just be with my family or my boyfriend and that's it. no life isn't it? sighs. i'm out.
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