still the priority?

every time while i fall sick,i do really wish that my love one could come over and give me the warmest care and love.
i really need lots of happiness from him.
i sound like i want too much and ask too much,
but i can't get this over.
sigh.
what am i to him since the day we were back?
still the priority? or just for fun? or just a company?
sigh sigh.

what's in his mind? i don't know.
seriously,i dislike and i hate he speck rude words to me.
cause i will think of my parents.
my very dumb mother always letting my dad scold with all those damn words.
i told myself i will not gonna get any husband like that.
sigh sigh sigh.
what's now?


baby,i ain't a doll.
i want an absolute love and care which is real and true.
i don't wanna play around.
i hope you could understand..

i love you.