your decision

We went out yesterday. Sounds nice, huh? I was so happy and glad that we are going out but then I wasn’t really feel happy during we were together in the mall. I can’t even feel any of happiness we use to have when we were together last time. I was so mad of myself. I had been thinking over the problem between me, you and her. I don’t know how and what to do for making myself happier. I can’t even know to smile rightly and truly in every single day of my life. The way I love you, it drag me to hell. It’s scary. I’m seriously tired for crying, crying all for you. Because of you, I don’t know how to live happily. I lost every single thing that I love and I miss so much. I want everything to be back into normal like how you said to me that easily. I know this could seriously drag me to be worse, every of us would even feel more stress and uncomfortable. The tears weren’t cried out from my eyes but from my heart. The pain, it’s extremely hurtful. This is all I feel in my heart deeply. Baby, please help me understand my feeling. Waiting for everything I want badly, but I not sure would this everything happen in reality. I’m just waiting for miracle happen. I didn’t have been loving someone this way. I miss the every single day that we had before. We both were very happy. Unfortunately, now I can’t find it back. I’m running back to the street, I hope I could able handle everything well. Although, it’s tough and miserable but I just hope miracle could happen. I don’t hope this is another disappointment and get fooled again. I can’t take this at all.

Baby, I want you to get the right person. I hope you could understand clearly who the girl you really want to be is. Please, I’m too tired for feeling this hard way. I can feel how the way she feel you, I understand how important you are to her. I guess I’m not that important to you. I just hope you could make up your mind with no regrets.