my fault

this is 8 Jan 10.
i was down for the whole day because from the night i read his messages in his mobile phone.
those messages that kills me a lot.
i called him in the middle of the night because i knew he might need a call of mine.
he were with his anger cause of the face i was with the whole night.
he hate it a lot.
he was right,nobody offer me to read those messages.
nobody force me to read it at all.
i just insisted wanted to read it myself and i made myself down.
yes,i was behaving stupidly.
i keep reading and looking about the past.
he told me,past is the past. it's all over.

baby,now you realized something how i felt before.
like my past,you wanted to know about my past.
you hate my past too.
all those story that when i was with another guy.
we behave this way it's because we love each other.
we care a lot for all.
that's why,and i do really care.
by the way i'm so sure,i ain't mad about her.

you said,i'm making you wanna hide something behind me again because of my behavior.
you know what,when i heard this i felt something like ''WHY? and ''WHAT?''
you meant you will hide and lie again for sure?
my behavior is really pissing you off, i know.
i understand this feeling cause i do had it before.

it's alright,i guess i just let all be.
just let it all be.
i walk with the story.
i will just go for whatever thing but not mentioning any about the past and i hope you could do it too.
i don't know i will be fine with this or not but i will try my best.
like i promised myself before,i will do whatever i promised myself.
i will your girl,new girl of yours i guess.

in my life, i met different kind of guy.
you are the only guy that
i cry the most.
i care the most.
i need the most.
i hope the most.
i love the most.
because of you,i live one more day.
the words that you said,i'll always care about and remember too.
the tears i have right now it's all for you.
i never want to argue with you.
every time we argue,i'll never try to put on more fight.
i'll talk softly to you and tell you i'm sorry.
the same thing,we both hate argument. we hate fight.
i never try to fight with anyone.
although,that time she hates me a lot.
she said i am a bitch or whatever i also forgotten.
i never take a try to fight back with her.
maybe i take myself as a third party that time.
i kept quiet and i kept it myself.
i don't know did you ever stand my side and help me but it's okay.
i don't mind.
i don't mind after all. . .