what about

why am i just writing all about my love?
why am i placing love at first place again? (what about him)
all i do, all i think is just about him.
hundred and thousand of question in my brain.
i need to know but i also don't want to know.
cause truth is ugly all the time.

i know he don't take my love for the same anymore.
not anymore like how he care about my feelings.

there are so much i can't say.

i wish to ask but i know the way he answer will be not i want.

do you ever ever know what i want?
i seems don't have any attraction anymore.

i don't know how much you love me but i know how much i am.

i ain't any pretty girl who can took your breath away.

i always mention you in my life. my boyfriend.
i hope you could understand this.